Step 1: Absorb birdsong and sunshine while drinking favorite beverage (coffee) on bizarrely cool-for-Houston May morning (60 degrees...seriously?!) So far, so good. If I get enough caffeine into my system, I may be able to make it through the day.
Step 2: Surround oneself with loved ones. Again, good. My guys arrived from College Station last night...SO happy to have them in the house again! However, many of the trappings of college life are now packed into our smallish home. At this point, every surface is covered with, well...stuff. Must close eyes...don't think about stuff.
Step 3: Medicate. Some of you might remember that I had an MRI recently to address my longtime migraine issue. Turns out my brain is there...and it's clear. Good brain. After putting it off for many years, I asked my Dr. to prescribe Topamax for me, and she agreed. It's actually a seizure medication but it's also used very effectively for migraines. Bonus side effect...loss of appetite/weight loss! Bad side effects...memory loss, confusion, suicidal thoughts, tremors, kidney stones, blah, blah, blah. So, the good news is that I've not been having the killer migraines AND I've lost 4 pounds. I'm pretty sure it's a fluke but I'm claiming it anyway. The bad side effects have been pretty minimal so far. Most strangely...some foods, including my beloved sparkly water, no longer taste good. Turns out that sparkly water is very bad for me anyhow. Who knew carbonation is bad for the bones? I mostly bumble through life just paying attention to the very important things: God, family, friends, Miss Maggie, my art, my students, the micro business I've been nurturing step by teensy, weensy step for years. To tell you the truth, I don't put a lot of thought into what I eat. So now I'll be on plain water...my favorite, gone. Also, my fingertips and toetips are tingly. Yes, tingly...very. I feel a thrumming through my whole body, especially at night. I think it will pass. So, you take the good with the bad, yes? The secret to life.
Step 4: Try to forget that loved ones will be leaving in two weeks. What did I just write? I forgot. Oh, all right...they've both got jobs at Philmont Scout Ranch for the summer. I'm so very proud! But, dang...I won't be seeing them at all...all summer. That's what happens though, isn't it? They grow, they fly, they live their own lives. And we admire them from afar. Today is Number Two's nineteenth birthday. I'm making him a German chocolate cake.
Step 5: Be grateful...stay positive. Of course, life throws it's challenges at me...just as it does everyone. I've never been a "dear diary" type gal...I guess that's reflected here. And, while I know I don't often delve into the realm of super-personal, I can tell you that I'm extremely thankful that you all are here with me, reading my words. As an artist, almost all of my work is done alone in my studio. Many days, you are my only contact with the wider world, so I can't even tell you how much your comments and emails mean. I read every single one of them and try to personally answer them all. The truth is, I'm grateful that I have the opportunity to be able to do what I love and to share it with you. What a blessing! Thank you. Thinking. Positive. Thoughts.